Had a matter of fact conversation with the moms of why I’m likely not bringing a child of my own into this world. I think I break her heart every time I speak with her. Perhaps because I walk with a shattered one. It’s not that I don’t want to. I can’t even indulge in the thought of it because I’m anticipating the horrors they will surely witness in the coming years and I cannot in good conscience usher them into this world. I cry every day. Mental illness or clairvoyance I can’t tell anymore. I don’t want to raise a blood warrior. Still raising myself. I’ll do whatever I can to commit to liberation work for those already here and those to come but likely none of me. The child I offer up is me. Liberation from the cycle of humanity.
Original link that got me serious serious. And to know the large complex animals are typically the first to go. The oceans are so filthy large sea mammals beaching themselves from distress. Disgusting. What world is this? And to witness compounded death like this in just a few years too much to bear.
And this is not even to own that humanity is terrible to its own.
AND THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME THE FUTURE SEEMS BLEAK FOR SCORES OF FOLX. PART OF IT IS THAT PEOPLE W POWER ARE SO CRUEL. THIS IS NOT TO BE CATASTROPHIC. THIS IS TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE CHANGING WORLD. TO ACKNOWLEDGE PEOPLE WILL STILL HAVE CHILDREN BY ALL SORTS OF MEANS WHETHER CHOSEN OR COERCED. AND ALSO TO ACKNOWLEDGE WITH COMPASSION THOSE OF US WHO JUST CAN”T KEEP UP WITH THIS CHANGING WORLD. THOSE OF US WHO WITH A FALSE SENSE OF SELF-DETERMINISM DO NOT WISH TO BE BRAVE FOR A NEWER WORLD ANYMORE.